Vaccination story

[h.arti-210]

I want to tell everyone my story, of how i went from being an incredibly healthy, energetic, intelligent, motivated, inspired, creative human being, to what I am now: a depressed, low energy, anxious, nervous wreckage who can't cope with anything, had to cancel her university plans, and now spends most of her time crying or sleeping or just moping around - in the space of a month.

I wish to warn people not to have a vaccination of any kind..... and please feel free to circulate this via email, or social networkign, if you should feel so compelled.

In my ignorance, I had an injection (not the flu jab, just antibiotics for a chest infection) about 4 months ago. Now I really wish I hadn't. To be honest, it would have been better to die of the chest infection.

I think about dying every day now. I feel suicidal - that's a side-effect of HEAVY METAL TOXIITY.

I didn't used to be this way. I used to be so sharp and energetic, and now I have no energy at all and am too depressed to work. My head is in a fog all the time. My nervous system is shot to bits... I've been like this for 4 months now, and it's got worse over time, not better....Please do not get yourself injected. Boost your immunity the natural way, and if you're really worried about getting flu, then I would sooner walk around wearing one of those anti-pollution masks than get jabbed again. Pump any more Mercury into my blood stream and I might not be around for much longer anyway. And I think I'd rather die of the flu than cause my family and friends the angst that they'd feel if I threw myself under a train. I think they'd get over it a lot sooner if I'd died of the flu.

Think about it. We all have a time to die - if it's your time, you'll die this year - whether that's by natural causes, or not. I sincerely hope this message will save you from suffering the way I am.
I am highly dubious about all the hype surrounding Swine Flu.......I would not be at all surprised if the conspiracy theories were true. ... in fact, I am quite certain they are.

If you don't believe me, please do your own research on the effects of Heavy Metal Toxicity..... trust me, you not want this stuff in your bloodstream... It changes you.... it severely impairs you....

Here, I've done it for you...

Effects of Mercury
Mercury affects health in many ways, including (in bold are the ones I have) :

* Chronic pain throughout the muscles and tendons or any soft tissues of the body
* Chronic malaise – general feeling of discomfort, and illness
* Chronic Fatigue
* Brain fog – state of forgetfulness and confusion
* Difficulty in making even simple decisions
* Unexplained irritability
* Constant or frequent periods of depression
* Chronic infections such as Candida
* Gastrointestinal complaints, such as diarrhea, constipation, bloating, gas, heartburn, and indigestion
* Food allergies
* Dizziness
* Easily out of breath
* Migraines and/or headaches
* Visual disturbances
* Mood swings, depression, and/or anxiety
* Nervous system malfunctions – burning extremities, numbness, tingling, paralysis, and/or an electrifying feeling throughout the body, jumpy, jittery, nervous
* Constant death wish or suicidal intent
* Frequent insomnia
* Unexplained chest pains
* Constant or frequent pain in joints
* Excessive itching
* Unexplained fluid retention
* Burning sensation on tongue
* Tachycardia
* Unexplained skin rashes / irritation / mould
* Frequent urination during the night
* Cold hands and feet, even in warm weather
* Tremors of shakes of hands, feet or head
* Sudden / unsolicited Anger
* Leg cramps
* Twitching of face or other muscles
* Constant or frequent ringing noise in ears
* Constant or frequent metallic taste in mouth
* Reduced effectiveness of antibiotics against bacteria
* Abnormally low-voltage electrocardiograms (depressed heart function)
* Contributes to the development of cancerous and pre-cancerous cells
* Decreases levels of brain neurotransmitters, including serotonin, contributing to depression, anger, anxiety and addictions
* Damages kidney cells (nephrotoxic) - ....(I have been finding it very hard to drink a lot of water, so I wonder if that's why?)
* Acts as an endocrine disruptor, in particular depressing the pituitary gland
* Reduces blood supply to the developing fetus
* Causes learning disabilities (well, I do find it very hard to concentrate on anything now)
* Damages the immune system, resulting in allergies, asthma, and autoimmune diseases


Thank you for reading, and sorry if this is upsetting in any way. I just want to warn people, and hopefully prevent someone from unnecessary suffering.

If this hasn't put you off already, I have a list here of some of the ingredients that go into medical injections of all kinds. Someone (a doctor) read them out to us at the last TPUC gathering. It was a little too late for me to find out though.

Ingredients:
Formaldehyde, Aspartame etc...
MERCURY
Gelatine
ABORTED FOETAL TISSUE
Aluminium
Thimerosal
Coal tar vescide (Fluid from CALF SKINS)
MONKEY KIDNEY CELLS
Mouse Serum Proteins

Do you really want this stuff injected into you and your children?
PLEASE, don't do it..... you don't want to feel the way i do..... trust me, last July I had the worst viral chest infection imaginable, but frankly feeling this way is not a lot better, and it's long-term. My whole life has ground to a halt.
I was about to start a university degree, and now I can't do that.....
I used to teach yoga, and I can't do that either...

I know the one I had was not the Swine Flu jab, but they all basically contain the same base ingredients with the same after effects....

Here is a video from YouTube which highlights the 'Big Brother style' campaign to get everyone to have these injections, among others, and predicts what's to come....

Big brother style campaigns in the UK
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T1rjeeb57nk


.....And some more videos about the dangers of vaccinations...

The dangers of vaccines
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tyaVxYYVfQE

Mercury's effect on the brain
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85tgwh3H ... re=related

Mercury Poisoning
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MtEpCrSTOEc&feature=fvw


How Mercury Causes Brain Neuron Damage - Uni. of Calgary
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XU8nSn5Ezd8


I'm sorry I didn't start sharing my experience sooner..... it's just that, it's taken me this long to come to terms with what's happening to me. I was in denial about it for a long time. I was sure I could overcome anything. Normally I'd bounce back like a peice of elastic, I was so resiliant, but not from this. This has hit me like a bulldozer and I'm not sure if I will ever fully recover.
I am doing a heavy metal detox with a herbal formula (Metagenics, 'Metal Formula') and I'm sure it is working, gradually..... just a bit too gradually for my liking. I'm told heavy metals don't come out easily; they go in deep. I wish I had realised 4 months ago and started detoxing then, but I only realised what it was that was actually causing my symptoms about a month ago. Until then, I just thought I was still recovering from the chest infection. I thought it might have something to do with the injection, but because I was so confused and my head was such a fog (and because i was so busy TRYING to carry on like normal - what a futile game!) it took ages for me to realise the truth.
When I first started doing the detox, I immediately felt better, but then after about a week of doing it I felt worse again. I guess that's because it's all coming to the surface and so the symptoms are intensifying.... I keep telling myself that.... but sometimes it doesn't help, and all I can visualise is being torn limb from limb by a train in slow motion. Last night I was up half the night with that one playing on repeat.

Don't do it to yourself. If my suffering is for anything, please let it not be in vain.... I sincerely hope and pray that this story prevents someone else suffering the way I am.

Thank you so much for reading, and please send this message to others, if they are in any doubt as to the dangers of vaccines.

[psybernism]

Hello friend,
my heart goes out to you, truly.
the hideous effects of these so-called vaccines have been discussed all over this forum so I won't get you talking about the distress you are currently suffering but i'm interested in what steps you are taking to combat the effects this injection has had on you?
Have you started researching potential cures or ways to alleviate the symptoms you have described?
You sound almost resigned to thinking that you are going to suffer like this for a long time and that very little can be done to reverse the effects of this injection.
I can't stress enough that you must not give up or give in to the trauma that you are going through, a positive mindset is so important to combating any kind of disease, disability or disfunction.
In terms of the substances you consume,i.e food and supplements, has this changed since before you started suffering from the effects of this injection? I see you are doing a herbal detox but everything you eat should be geared towards strengthening your body, i don't think you can have too much good stuff, you sound like you know how to look after yourself. (admittedly, i didn't read your post properly to start with so missed the bit about the herbal detox! )
The strength of your immune system and your body's ability to detoxify is, of course, directly related to the quality of the things you put into it, not to mention the individual qualities and properties of specific herbs and minerals that have been shown to help in reversing the effects of the kind of attack your body has been subjected to.
The way you nourish your body must now change dramatically because of the trauma it has suffered.
It is very important that you do not give up hope, the human body has remarkable abilities to self-heal if only we give it the help it needs and keep our mental health intact by never giving up hope.
Have you started claiming incapacity benefit? Something to think about.
Are you undergoing any treatments or taking any prescription medicines? (edit- i need to read things a bit more thoroughly, your mention of suicide got me rattled!)
I'm not a doctor or medical practitioner but I can say without too much hesitation that the "doctors" who did this to you are really not the people who you should be consulting about getting better again. (Are they denying that the injection was the cause of your current health problems?)
I wish you a speedy and full recovery.
Love and Light.

[busylizzy]

harti

I doubt very much you have mercury poisoning for two reasons

one) your symptoms are not indicative of mercury poisoning

two) there is no mercury in an anti biotic injection

you sound like your are suffering severe depression and whilst i cant say this isnt connected to your injection, you should take your symptoms to your GP who will be able to help you

[psybernism]

Is it normal for antibiotics to be administered as an injection?
I thought the norm was to take a course of tablets.
I'm mildly allergic to penicillin but have taken Amoxicillin and Erythromycin in the past and never as an injection and at least once it was for a chest infection.
The side effects listed don't include the symptoms described.
Antibiotics do attack other biological systems of the body so it's important to rebalance the body. I've read that antibiotics destroy the intestinal flora so you need to reintroduce live cultures into the body through eating live yoghurt and perhaps even taking bacterial supplements, granted, i doubt this sort of deficiency would cause severe depression!
Did the doctor tell you which antibiotic you were given?
Green superfood powders may help when the body's defences have been severely affected.
You may want to seek out a tutor of medical qi-gong in your area; qi-gong (chi-gung) is comprised of very simple movements which can easily be practised at home and which serve to strengthen the individual organs and the overall health of the entire body. Until very recently in China there were qi-gong hospitals that had an amazing success rate in completely curing many types of cancer and countless other diseases and afflictions. Qi-gong probably places much less stress on the body than, say, yoga, as the forms are practised standing up and are ideally suited for someone with a debilitating affliction such as yours.

[emmanualgoldstein]

lol what are you talking about harti, thats the most healthy, energetic, intelligent, motivated, inspired, creative post ive read in a month

[h.arti-210]

[quote="psybernism"][/quote]


Dear psybernism

I can't thank you enough for your kind words and concern.... I have been so disheartened in the last year and bewildered by the lack of compassion some people seem to have... I've obviously been hanging out with the wrong people!
To start with, I completely agree with you about nutrition being of utmost importance in recovering from any kind of trauma or illness.... I mostly eat a lot of vegetables, like pumpkin and carrots and beets and that sort of thing.... I also eat a lot of grains especially Quinoa and rice and buckwheat, and almost everything I eat is organic.
Buy my problem, dietary-wise, is that I eat much too much chocolate (the milky kind!) and that's got worse wince the injections, because I have become more addicted to it. I'm sure the sugar isn't doing me any good at all. Everything else I eat is really healthy though. And apart from the chocolate, I don't eat any dairy. I used to be 100% Vegan (when I was super duper healthy - that's my ideal diet) - and I want to be again, but I know it sounds silly, but milk chocolate is my only emotional comfort sometimes, and the only thing that makes me feel any better.
I think mostly I am just in shock at how far i sunk down in such a short space of time, from where I was befoere.... I was SO healthy.....I really looked after myself, I was very conscious of what I ate, and did a lot of exercise, and was very focussed on self-healing all the time. I think the reason I got the chest infection is because for the 9 months beforehand, I had suddenly decided to subject myself to a lot of undue pressure and mental over-work, and was basically driving myself into the ground to achieve this goal which I set my sights on - and now I come to think of it, I don't know why I placed so much importance on it after all now. I was trying to prove something to myself or something. I don't know.... specifically, I did an access course, over one year, and my teachers thought I had all this great potential and I guess I just wanted to prove them right and do the best I could do. I'd never done anything like it before, but needless to say I did very well - top marks in everything. And then as soon as it was finished, I got ill. And I NEVER used to get ill!!!! Ever!!!! It wasn't just the access course.... it was other things as well..... lots of things.... I wasn't receiving much compassion when I really needed it, I was receiving judgement instead, from the kind of people who should know better (I mean in spiritual circles and the like) .... and then I was let down by friends..... i guess it all added up. I think I went off on a tangent with that access course mission because I wanted to take charge of my life for a change and do something for me, that didn't depend on anyone else. I got sick of being dishonoured. But then I got ill, right about the time they sent me my results in the post. Ironic, huh?
I don't even know what in the hell I was thinking now. Why did I want to go to a bloody institution, where i could have even more pressure piled on top of me, and hang out with a load of 19 year olds? What was I thinking? I'm too much of a black sheep to do something like that, and I always have been! I must have been off my trolley thinking that....
I just started to hate that I didn't seem to have any control over my own life, and I wanted to claim some. But it was obviously just a bullshit mistake and a stupid ego trip. Does that make any sense?

Anyway back to the subject.... (sorry, did I say anger was one fo the symptoms? )

I'm not exactly resigned.... not quite there yet, but I sometimes feel so hopeless. Like i said I just can't believe how far I fell.
This time last year I was the healthiest and fittest I've ever been in my whole life. Now I'm the opposite. I can't believe it. Because I never used to get ill (because my immunity was strong, and I was strong and fit and healthy), I just took it for granted that I wouldn't get ill.... you know.... and it came as a terrible shock that suddenly I was not just a little bit ill.... not just alittle cough or a cold, but a full blown VIRAL infection.... and the doctor that treated me said it would get worse if I didn't have the antibiotics.

It happened while I was at Glastonbury festival. I was there working on the so-called recycling crew. (Now I am pretty sure none fo that stuff even gets recycled by the way. I was so naive I thought we were doing something good, but as it turns out it's just for show and it all goes to landfill anyway. ) And about the time I realised this, that's about the time I fell down with the virus.... and I was stuck on the festival site because i didn't have anywhere else to go, and the doctor that came to see me took his sweet time and then when he eventually made it he didn't tell me any of the risks of vaccinations, he just kept coming back and giving me more and more injections - actually it was about 3 vaccines and 2 suppositaries in total. Something like that. I didn't want oral antibiotics, because I knew about the risks of those... how they can affect your digestive system.... but I didn't know about the risks of vaccinations..... I thought that by having injections I'd just be by-passing the side-effects of oral antibiotics, but I was so wrong..... the side effects of injections are even worse! And I asked the doc if there was any, and he said not that he knew of, and he seemed to believe that it would just make me all better. When he saw me a couple fo weeks later and I had no strength or energy in my body, he didn't seem to understand why I should be like that - he just expected me to be right as rain again.... Now I come to think of it, he must have been a complete fucking Moron!

I'm just so fucking angry about everything - sorry - I will try to stick to the point and the questions you asked me.

Yes, the herbal tincture is seeming to be doing its thing, slowly but surely.... I assume that symptoms get worse before they start to get better, and that that is what is happening to me right now. I hope so anyway.

At night time is the worst..... I sometimes can't sleep, and all I can think are suicidal thoughts. It's like my thoughts are out of control, and I can't do anythign about it. Even if I tell myself, it's just the detox, it doesn't make any differenjce sometimes.
Please don't be too alarmed because they are only thoughts, and I don't think I would actually do it..... as tempting as it is sometimes.... I am too responsible for that. The reason why I am sharing it is because I want to warn people what can happen to you.

Not everyone might react the same way as me. I am very sensitive, so I so react the most things quite strongly. I have to be careful what I expose myself to. I forget that sometimes. But I would say these injections are bad news for anyone, not just the sensitives like me.... I just maybe feel things a bit more intensely or something, but it doesn't mean it's not real...


I'm not on incapacity benefit.... I think the reason for that is because I'm only just actually coming to terms with the fact that I might be like this for some time, and until now I was telling myself I would be better soon and that I'd carry on like normal, but I am only just accepting the fact that I can't and that I need time.

I'm not on any prescription medicines. Apart from that doctor at Glastonbury festival, I never see any doctor. I don't trust them - and I never take any drugs of any kind, not even paracetamol!!!! The only reason why I (mistakenly) trusted that one was because I was in a desperate situation and I was alone in a tent, and I had nowhere else to go, and I felt like I was dying. I would have done anything. Now i wish I had just never gone there in the first place.

Also, I don't recommend working for Glastonbury festival. I have done it 2 years running now, and I can tell you this for free - they will not give a shit about you if you get ill. I was in that tent for 3 weeks like that, hardly able to move or even make it to the toilets as i had so little strength in my body. My boss never even bothered to find out how I was or if I was okay. Nobody thought about getting me out of there and to somewhere safe. They just came along every couple of days and pumped me with more antibiotics. That's how they treat their hardest workers. I can't believe I put myself through it. Now I can't even believe I did it to myself, and I can't believe I let myself be treated that way. I ended up dishonouring myself.

[h.arti-210]

lol what are you talking about harti, thats the most healthy, energetic, intelligent, motivated, inspired, creative post ive read in a month

LOL THANKS!!! So I haven't completely lost it then??

[h.arti-210]

......the "doctors" who did this to you are really not the people who you should be consulting about getting better again. (Are they denying that the injection was the cause of your current health problems?)

I forgot to answer this question - No, I haven't seen that doctor since, nor do I want to very much. He lives in Glastonbury.

I'm sure he is a nice man and meant well, but he is hardly my favourite person right now.
He's the sort of doctor who'll finish smoking his cigarette before he'll do his appointment with you. Not even remotely healthy himself, so I don't see how he can advise anyone else about health.

[h.arti-210]

harti

I doubt very much you have mercury poisoning for two reasons

one) your symptoms are not indicative of mercury poisoning

two) there is no mercury in an anti biotic injection

you sound like your are suffering severe depression and whilst i cant say this isnt connected to your injection, you should take your symptoms to your GP who will be able to help you

I doubt that very much busylizzy. They will probably just put me on antidepressants and send me to a counsellor, which is not what I need. What I need is my health back again.

Also, I have had 2 health screenings, with different health practitioners (one of them a kinesiologist, and one does this thing called a 'Vega Check' screening) - and they BOTH came up showing that I have Heavy Metal Toxicity.... it also showed my nervous system was severely out-of-whack, as a result. Yes, of course I am depressed - you would be too if your body was under so much stress.
I wasn't depressed before I had the vaccinations - so obviously it's directly related.

But thanks anyway, for your concern.

[h.arti-210]

Is it normal for antibiotics to be administered as an injection?
Green superfood powders may help when the body's defences have been severely affected.
You may want to seek out a tutor of medical qi-gong in your area; qi-gong (chi-gung) is comprised of very simple movements which can easily be practised at home and which serve to strengthen the individual organs and the overall health of the entire body. Until very recently in China there were qi-gong hospitals that had an amazing success rate in completely curing many types of cancer and countless other diseases and afflictions. Qi-gong probably places much less stress on the body than, say, yoga, as the forms are practised standing up and are ideally suited for someone with a debilitating affliction such as yours.

Thank you for all the suggestions, psybernism... I do use Green Superfood, and I will check out Qi-Gong as I've never tried it before.