The beingness > one

[moonview]

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I need to be able to give. I need to take, a lot more take than give right now. . . is there guilt? . . . Should I be thankful? . . that is I so love to get a good feeling and it’s a shit when it doesn’t come and I know I shouldn’t feel like that., that makes of at least three . . might there be four or more. . . or is it schizophrenia . . are you sure, does it matter, shall we talk about it?

There is a serious point to this . . something I’m going to try and only tickle here. I guess it’s just . . ongoing surgery, something I’m beginning to do a little self inner biological work on.

Before I get too involved though, I’ll be seeking corroboration . . . pretty much any, that it’s it’s relevant to the kind of understanding we all might be in need of.

Now I’m not an academic, or a writer or any such of a kind of person you’ve ever heard of before. This, as everything is new. Ask yourself, do you really want to listen to someone, just anyone in the hope that it might be something that’s not just worth reading but changes a life. What are the chances? That’s what this is about, nothing less than a chance. Do you take chances? Even after all that shit, do we still hope, do we still have to?

Many still cling to the notion of one mind, or two being a problem. Duality is often referred to when describing our inner psyche's or is it about the outer manifestations of them . . both? In and out?. Nothing essentially wrong with either . . . I get confused with that one too. No . . it’s more just the way they're arrived at as concepts that don't just describe but are of our very nature. You know ‘inside’. I might be wrong about this but I’ve just got this feeling that you’ve had that ‘fleeting’, know of exactly knowing. That little voice inside as it tries to loosen the knot that tied us up for a while, yeh, Conversations in your mind, In short, we are of two (playing) You can feel me now right?

We can be of two, consciously or unconsciously. Unconsciously means we take the consequences. There are a lot of consequences and you might be wrapped up in any one of them, Why, cause you won’t know who the hell you are and external forces will have total control over your being, without question. Some of those consequences will be handed down through generations the not bloodline, but the chain, it’s a mark of enslavement . . . so they become a lot more entwined and seemingly difficult to both see and breakdown. On the outer surface casualties, the ones left, bequeathed to us by learned scientists and medical practitioners, damage. Conventionally, instead of being seen of as ‘just normal processes’’ they are as of November 2012, (ooops, that was interesting) still problems. ‘Deranged’ or schizophrenic, rather heinous and misappropriate terms serving, like the irritation enforcement squad, just to keep us from discovering who we really are.

Consciously, and I mean, go right on inside and have a chat and know your doing it. Start a conversation as if it were a seed to be germinated, not just quick fleeting flyby. by default making that choice gives you a third, it just begets it, it’s energy, a kind of foreplay, Initially I call an arbiter, someone who looks after and cares for the otherwise duality. Once you discover you are one of or in three then it's possible to begin to grow to know 'oneself' which still others might refer to of as something to do with the ‘Tree of Life’. That’s a bit of a Cabal . . . but it does perhaps have it’s roots in something that might, if we’re really taking care to see, might show us a thing or two about what actually happened, is happening and will continue to happen where the only difference between states of happen is the experience ‘know’ has.

And if you want my opinion I’d begin to look back again and again, until you eventually just surrender, I mean just have no choice but to fall onto your knees to that great big . . oh shit. . can't I? within. Then you’ll just start to get the tinyest inkling of being really onto something. Something that’ll put you right on another dimension, almost to quickly to perceive clearly. That’s when you begin to realize that there’s an awful lot to discover along with your knew found ‘inner’ friends, you know . . the little tribe you recently found, the conversations you started, the connections that were made . . and that’s about the most liberating feeling you can ever have in your entire life. Bobs your bloody nipple m8 . . pd james lyrics always have all my phrenics falling about in awe of. I’ll leave you to discover them. He’s one hell of a weird dood though.

he gets all the me's and you's the wrong way round.

Bmt is all bollocks.

Up yours too

Pea s up anyone?